You're an interesting case, Grush21.
The 'shoe/nice girl' scenario you present is to prove what? Nice try! BUT, you failed.
YOU are either committed or you're not. YOU come across as someone insisting on guarantees before commitment. What are the %'s of success that will satisfy you BEFORE commitment? WHO/what would take a chance on you? YOU come across as being very SPOILED.
In life, you will become an absolute FAILURE, based on your attitude. In other words, GROW UP, & be prepared to take educated risks.
Good luck (you're going to need it!).